LIFE IS GOOOOOOOOD!!!!


and that is all.

So...I went to a fraternity dance this weekend. I was supposed to go up to see my brother and have a radical time at his 80s party, but i worked til late on Friday and then i worked early on sunday. However, at the last minute my buddy Bryan asked me to go to the Phi Mu Alpha Cotillian with him on Saturday. So...i went with him since i couldn't go to the cities anyway. It was a blast! Here are some pictures of us! We tore up that dance floor!!! That kid has some mad energy and i kept right up with him! he called me the "Best date ever!" so i have that going for me! haha..anyway, enjoy the pics!

So...wow. my life is sooooo weird. I guess when you need a pick-me-up, life will provide you with an abundant supply..but only if you work things right. I've got a HUGE case of the "Feel-goods" right now and it's so funny how this type of thing happend immediately following a sad or evil experience. So my heart gets broken...and then a million and one things happen to make it come alive and be happy again.

-Random "You look great tonight"s from your best friend
-Cute boys at work who grin when they look at you
-Random guys at the bar who come and talk to you and then tell you how perfect they think you are...but they don't even know what they are talking about
-Yet the random guy at the bar who doesn't know what he is talking about is amazingly interesting and rather good looking in his own sort of way so your heart beats really fast when he calls you 20 minutes after you leave him at the bar. (because yes, you gave him your number when he asked for it)
-good times out with the girls
-unexpected fraternity dance invitations
-money from the school to pay off bills (yeah..out of london debt..FINALLY!)
-snuggles
-feeling good in trendy clothes
-random fraternity brothers telling you that you must save them a dance...at the dance
-singing songs to the accoustic guitar
-i could go on...

so...life is seemingly good right now. I just feel like i am going to wake up and it will all have been a dream. I hope this isn't a dream. i deserve to be happy...and i am. Thank you...whoever, or whatever you are.

So, i had an awesome week last week what with gaslight and everything, and now..this week blows. There is so much anticipation for the dance coming up on Saturday (yes, i got invited to the Phi Mu Alpha frat dance!!! YESSS!) that the week could not possibly be slower and more boring. Ugh..last week i got to see mom, gerogiann, tim, diana...and i got to sing on stage with justin, and i got to chill with friends. it was awesome...and now i have to wait until saturday before i get to have fun again. i'm soooo burnt out. no sleep...i got a total of 8 hours this last weekend. and i have so much work to catch up on it's not cool. well enough ranting and complaining from me...i do it to myself. YIKES!

I'd just like to say....HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIG BROTHER! i love you so much!

hugs and kisses to my pooks!

I should have known...Now who's the stupid girl?

Well, tonight i went to the WSU basketball game with my friend Jordy and had a blast! I haven't had that much fun at a game in a long time...mostly because i never go, but this one was intense. I saw Brie and Chris, Gaving, Rick and AJ all there too!!!! it was so fun to see them! I miss my cousin even though i see her so much this semester. We have to make up for lost time over thanksgiving and other september8-december23rd activities i missed while in london!

alas...i have to work tomorrow and i have class, and wouldn't you know...here i am. WIDE awake. I bet they'll let me go early tomorrow. i hope...i have gaslight rehearsal. so that's going ot be important for me to be at! and i need to go to bed. ugh...i'm going to feel horrible tomorrow. i was soooooo tired all day today, but the pizza and justin kept me up til now! grrrrrr...g'night

There are many different things in life that i just don't understand. HAHA, it's funny really. Like how come the weather can be INCREDIBLE all morning, and then as soon as i get outside to enjoy it, the clouds come out and i am cold? Then it seems that once i go inside to warm myself, the sun comes out again. Perhaps Mother Nature has a beef with me that she wants to settle. Well i'm waiting...Bring it. How come it can be so difficult for some to learn how to drive stick shift, but on my first time ever trying i get it right away and don't stall the car once? How come it always seems like when one door in life closes, two more open? What is it about certain music or songs that affect a person so deeply? Why is it that i can listen to a song over and over and over and love every word that is sung, yet at the same time feel like the very song that i love is torturing me inside? It is so curious how music is such a huge part of my life and a huge part of who i am. I grew up loving all different kinds of music and much of that stems from my dancing. Classical to NIN. Then there was the big brother who had so much influence on who i am today that if he were to have told me to paint my face green and tell everyone that i was a frog, i would have done it with no questions asked. (i love you Pook) He has introduced more music to me than anyone i know. There is just something about it. I can't get past this one song as of recent. (0% interest..lyrics posted below a few days ago) If you've seen the movie Garden State and know the part in the movie where Large listens to the Shins and it changes his life....then you'll know what i mean when i say that this song is changing my life. It just...changes me. Makes me think. Makes me feel. It torments and sooths me at the same time. There are so many different people walking into and out of my life at such a fast pace these days that i can hardly focus on anything. it's like the song from WICKED says "Because i knew you, i have been changed for good." The change isn't done. It hurts. It feels wonderful. It confuses me. It angers me. It keeps me going and sometimes it stops me dead in my tracks. Surprises are around every corner and there are times that i don't feel like i can handle it, but there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Most of the time when i feel my weakest someone steps quickly into my life and helps me through.
One of my favorite quotes goes a little something like this "May today there be peace within. May you trust in your highest power that you are exactly where you are meant to be." it's a good quote to think about...i think.

Well, i've said quite a lot tonight. My mind is racing and there is so much to think about. i think i'll take a nap. i have an engagement at midnight tonight...I CAN'T WAIT! it's a secret, but perhaps someday you'll know about it!


You left your thumbprint inside me now for months it seems
But mine only brushes your soft surface
And somehow,
Somehow it leaves me listless
My tongue curls under my lips oh oh yes

So I can't speak to tell you of the months before I met you

Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.


wish i'da wached that show. Ima go to class now.

My song. Makes me think of you, you know.

0% interest--Jason Mraz

Well our friends on the front porch, well they're telling jokes
And they swing swiftly towards them happier times
They're expending a line and finding more energy for the effort
And getting distance from that front porch spotlight
But us we found peace in shadows
Long enough to see the monsters arise

Candy's got some space to fill in her daydream
Living high on yesterday's lies
Talking to me about some 0% interest
And how she got a better deal than the next guy

And the way the lightning shocked us
When we were lost and we were looking down that long missouri highway
Your hair was longer then and now I can remember
See now I remember oh so well

Oh the roads unencumbered by cats
They're burning like wet matches
Through my miracle mile mind

You left your thumbprint inside me now for months it seems
But mine only brushes your soft surface
And somehow,
Somehow it leaves me listless
My tongue curls under my lips oh oh yes

So I can't speak to tell you of the months before I met you
And the way the truth it locked us oh
Right 'bout the time after the lightning shocked us

When we were young, when we were young and missing
'round that small new england byway
Our lives they were sheltered then and I now I can remember
See now well I remember oh so well, almost too well
Well its not even being about that anymore
I gotta get you down

Those tiny fragments of perfection
They please me in a time unchanged
When its not the same beginning
Or a long awaited end

If I knew all the words
I would write myself out of here
If I was all the colors
I would paint you pretty in gold
In a picture so I'm told little sister

So now I'm sold little sister
Why don't you tell me about the sunsets in Sweden
And the laws of eden
And how you were the rock of Gibraltar
And how they called you foxy
Well that's another whole box of pandoras
That's another whole box of them ties

Slide your foot off the gas
Before we crash right back into the median,
Right back into the median, the median, lord

It separates, our house, from the middle of the street
It separates, our house, from the middle of the street (fade)

ok...so coffee is great. I'm addicted...really really addicted! I am drinking decaf but i had full strength earlier today, and then half and half this evening, and now...decaf! OH...and lemme tell you how my hair looked after the dance the other night. It was all crimpy and cute! hehehe..here you go!

well, i'm about ready to take an exam for my seminar class and i'm less than thrilled about it. It is open book, open notes, so it shouldn't be that hard, but at the same time, i just don't want to do it. Anyway, i took some killer pictures with my cell phone from my weekend, but i don't have it here, so i can't post those. Anyway, it's time for me to take this test...i'll post more later!

Hey all! I went to the benefit dance tonight at SMU and the Johnny Holmes band played! We had a great time and now i'm sleepy and it's time for bed. Here's a picture of the group i went with.

From left to right:
Megan, Justin, Holly, Rickey!


the back of my hair! it was way cute!

It's a new cousin! This is Grace Mae Mangleson with her Mommy Holly, and Daddy Jake, (Big sister Hannah was at Auntie Mary's (my grandma's). Welcome to our family Beautiful baby girl! She only waited 13 minutes once Holly got to the hospital..sounds like a quick delivery if you ask me. (but she waited 10 days pst her due date before she decided to be born!) I can't wait to hold her! Oh babies! Silly little girl! Congratulations Jake and Holly!

i have been sitting here in the library for over 7 hours...i'm done doing my work, but i just can't move. and really...i'm not done with my work, but i don't have to be in the library anymore to finish it. anyway...here are the pics i just took. i might as well just say here if this is what the place looks like...i don't want to clean it!