So, my last day of vacation is today. I begin working tomorrow at the Barnes and Noble. Time goes by so quickly. I tend to enjoy passing my time sleeping in my bed, however, there is so much beauty outside that i regret not having enjoyed. But you can't have that time back, you can only learn from laziness and appreciate the time you do have outside. Whatev...i'm rambling about the weather..and such.

I'm kinda feeling...eh today. I don't know how to explain it. Something is kinda turning inside...i don't quite know what. it's not like an illness...nothing like i feel sick, but my mind is just running overtime. (that might explain the headache?) I really need to talk to Aaron. He always makes me feel better when i don't know what's going on with me. Could be the begining of an anxiety attack..again..oh boy, wouldn't that be fun?! Well at any rate, he at least helps me to forget what i was thinking about and relax a little.
Being that he is 3.5 hours away doesn't make for an easy summer for me. I'm not enjoying this distance between us. I thought i would be fine, i did this one other time too, but it's hard. Very hard. Distance makes the heart grow fonder...right? Well in my case i think it does. And judging by his voice last night on the phone it seems that it may be having the same effect on him, but just because we're growing fonder, doesn't mean anything. I can't be with him. I can't spend time with him, talk with him face to face, see him do those silly faces that make me so mad sometimes. I can't get my daily backrub...now THAT i miss...hee hee. There is so much that i have to wait for until we have time off from work. then i can travel the 3.5 hours to see him...well whatev...enough sappy talk about me missing AJ...none of this will help. Oh well.

hmmm...so work tomorrow. ack. i best be on my way to relaxin...i'm gonna need some sleep pretty soon. good night everyone...sleep sweet.