I'm exhausted. even though i went home this weekend and slept in, i still, still feel like i got no sleep. I guess i was up until 4am on Saturday night, and then last night i was up until 11. i can't go to sleep nights, and in the morning i feel ridiculously tired and then wonder why. I'm an idiot. I hope this week goes by quickly with some exciting uplifting events. (though in my cynical Monday attitude, i highly doubt that will happen)

I haven't seen anything very inspirational these days. Sometimes there is something that one will see, a flower, a sunset/sunrise, a beautiful bird, and it just makes one stop and think. Makes me want to be more, do more. I feel a bit inspired inside, but it's nothing burning. something is building up...in the back of my mind, something is happening...but something is brewing.

speaking of brew...this coffee at work is horrible. maybe i've been spoiled this past year with coffee from foreign lands. This crap we drink here...basically dirt in a coffee filter, requires so much added attention to make it even drinkable, that i wonder how worth it this really is. I'm looking into getting some good foreign coffee shipped to me, only problem is, i have yet to figure out what the name of the stuff is. This is where Kate and Pam (her mom) come into play! I want to see if i can't order some of the coffee that kate brought her mom back from Amsterdam. If I can get the name of it, then i can do a little research. Then maybe i can be happy. hehehe...coffee happy.

I need a massage. a really good back and shoulder massage...for free. I don't have anyone that can give me one. My roommate that i used to dish that work out on won't talk to me anymore...and frankly, asking him for a back massage would be ridiculous. He'd probably spit at me or something. hahaha. I wish he'd grow up.



The Fray said it best: Everyone knows i'm in over my head.