ok, here is my second attempt at a post.

i really haven't anything to say. I'm numb. Emotionally numb. Mentally numb. Physically numb. The end of the year is always really hard for me, but there are particular reasons this year that are really taking a toll on me. I hate leaving this place and knowing that i won't be seeing my friends for a long time...and some of them even longer than that. it's really rough when your best friends move away....when you realize that the relationship you've built up with them over the year is coming to a close, and although you'll still talk and still be there for eachother, things will never be quite the same. There are some people who come into our lives for a reason. They show up just in time to help you through your darkest hour, and when those people become such an enormous part of your life, it's very very very hard to let them go. I guess its just something i'm struggling with these days. I don't quite know how to explain it, but it hurts and that's all i can say. Life hurts, but it hurts for a reason and we have to try and learn from the hurt. We have to find a way to see the sunshine in our lives again. Its not always easy, as a matter of fact, its never easy. But if it were easy it wouldn't be worth it. And its during these times of suffering that we are sent friends who will help us though. They are like guardian angels. It just hurts terribly knowing that you're about to move away from the best angel you've ever had in your life. I don't know what i'm going to do without you, but this is part of life. And We aren't give anything we can't handle. So, i'll grit my teeth and go forward with confidence that life is panning out the way it should. Just, i ask of you all to keep me in your thoughts. I need all the support i can get.

Anyway, now that i'm good and emotional, i'm going to try to do some homework. I hope you are all well. Take care.