What up? I don't know what's wrong with my Blog...but it won't update...so this is a test more or less. nothing much to report except i'm leaving with Sar for Illinois tomorrow! YESSSS! Alright...nothing else to say. lates

I'm feeling lonely today. I know I am at home and I have my parents and everything, but I miss school. I really miss my friends. I can say that now and mean every single one of them..even Heidi, Kinzie, and Diana. Both heidi and kinz are living in the twin cities this summer and Diana just closed on her house in Iowa today and is moving in there. So no longer lives next door. I just found out today and she's already gone. I just feel so lonely. I guess I'm my own sob story, but I don't know how else to feel right now. Just bored I guess, I better not have too many days off, it's not good for me. *sigh* I think I'll go get in some jammies and watch Phantom of the Opera with my mom and dad. Lemme know if you'd like to join me. I wish you could.

OMG...it's sunny out. I don't know what to do. I'm gonna go waste the entire beautiful day inside at B&N. I'm so lucky!

To Shea...

Here I am.

Rock you like a hurricane.





Thanks bud, thanks for that.

oooooh...the fridge delivery guy was sooooooo cute! he comes waltzin' in here with his brown pumas and khakki shorts..and a cute little backward hat! (he wasn't too tall either!) And there i stood, supervising with my bed head and pajama look. Just my luck..Oh well. Ugh...Gott fill up the fridge and then go back to bed. mmmm, sleep!

Alright...this is absurd. I am flat broke..not even kidding, and I have to come up with some money to buy a passport ($85 to be exact) not to mention I have to pay back some loans i have and i know there will be a phone bill comin up. How can this be possible. Now I know all of you adults are saying "welcome to the real world" but here's what I have to say to that...I'm not ready to be a part of "the real world" yet. I don't have the means to do it. Ugh...Life is a money sucker...how am I supposed to enjoy London if I don't have tons of money to spend on clothing and shoes? That's what it's really all about anyway. hehehe. And furthermore, I have possible plans for my future that will require bucketloads of money..and I just don't know how I'm going to make it happen. I guess things will fall into place. They did for Jamey. He's doing fantastic now! Someday, maybe I will too. But until then...anyone got an oversized Box they'd like to lend me? I'm thinking about putting an addition onto my room. A box will work nicely. It can be my safe haven! Alright...time to go scrounge up some stale food or something. It's not like I can afford fresh groceries. (plus there is no refrigerator to put them in anyway...as Cindy about that one.) YO!..I'm outie!

I can't sleep. I guess it may be because i slept 13 hours yesterday. anyway...i'm sitting here talking to my friends who also have problems with going to sleep at a usual hour...or maybe this is usual. I guess if i were at college i may have only been asleep for and hour or two. Anyway, i screwed up my sleep schedule...but a little sleep can fix that. hehehe. I always cure a problem with sleep, so i'll be going to repair this one shortly...just not quite yet. OH my...big yawn, I start work at Barnes and Noble tomorrow. I will be working 5-9 back in the Kids area! I'm excited. SO yeah...it's back to the BN for me this summer...i'm also planning on working the Rochester Civic Theatre summer camps for the little kids again this summer. Tim and i got ourselves the ages we wanted and signed up for two camps. I can't wait for those! It's going to be so much fun! ANyway, I'm cold. so i'm going to go crawl back into bed and lay there...if nothing else at least i'll be warm. (dad must not know what heat is..i mean it's not like it's warm and sunny outside...try COLD AND WET) UGH! Good night...er...morning.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!!

good food. I can't wait! mmmmmmmm.

oh I miss school. A lot.

I'm HOOOOOOOOME!

i'm happy to be here, but i really miss my school friends. I had a blast with Mom, my Nan, and My Heidi Butt last night. Thanks ladies! I love you all!

Those of you from SMU, thank you so much for a wonderful year. I know there were rough times, but each experience has helped make me who i am today. Thank you. Love you all too!

Time to eat food with Heidi...waffles. (REAL HOME COOKED FOOD!!!!!)

I don't get it...My eyes flew open about an hour ago...yes, 4:30am and i can't sleep. It was only 3 hours ago that i went to bed. WHY AM I AWAKE????

ugh.

I'M FINALLY DONE WITH MY JUNIOR YEAR OF COLLEGE! YESSSS!! Finals are over! Wonderful times for me!!

so i thought you would all like to know that tomorrow is my very last final. I have to give a presentation with my twin, it should be easy as pie! I have a big bed now at school. My roommate left this morning and now i have the place to myself. It's a little weird, but i kinda like it. Anyway..i took a few pics tonight..thought you'd like to see that i've gone nuts! (the one of me in the hat is from last week, but it still proves my point about how i've gone completely mad!) Hehehe...anyway. Glad that school is over, but nervous about everything to come. (LONDON..I'm so poor) muhahahaha

Happy Mother's Day all you Moms. WOO HOO!

well..it is definately that time of year that i need to get the heck out of here. I can't stand sharing a room anymore...it's getting really old. I want my own space where i don't have to worry about walking in on anything...or worry about who was in the shower with who last night...i just want to feel like i can be in my own room when i want to be. Time to move out! how i miss thee home.

ok, here is my second attempt at a post.

i really haven't anything to say. I'm numb. Emotionally numb. Mentally numb. Physically numb. The end of the year is always really hard for me, but there are particular reasons this year that are really taking a toll on me. I hate leaving this place and knowing that i won't be seeing my friends for a long time...and some of them even longer than that. it's really rough when your best friends move away....when you realize that the relationship you've built up with them over the year is coming to a close, and although you'll still talk and still be there for eachother, things will never be quite the same. There are some people who come into our lives for a reason. They show up just in time to help you through your darkest hour, and when those people become such an enormous part of your life, it's very very very hard to let them go. I guess its just something i'm struggling with these days. I don't quite know how to explain it, but it hurts and that's all i can say. Life hurts, but it hurts for a reason and we have to try and learn from the hurt. We have to find a way to see the sunshine in our lives again. Its not always easy, as a matter of fact, its never easy. But if it were easy it wouldn't be worth it. And its during these times of suffering that we are sent friends who will help us though. They are like guardian angels. It just hurts terribly knowing that you're about to move away from the best angel you've ever had in your life. I don't know what i'm going to do without you, but this is part of life. And We aren't give anything we can't handle. So, i'll grit my teeth and go forward with confidence that life is panning out the way it should. Just, i ask of you all to keep me in your thoughts. I need all the support i can get.

Anyway, now that i'm good and emotional, i'm going to try to do some homework. I hope you are all well. Take care.

Ok, to satisfy your request AJ, here's an update. Now get off my case! Kiddin.

I'm eatin cereal right now and it's mighty nummy. I bought Fruit Loops with marshmellows in them, and if you haven't tried them you yet...you MUST! it's candy! And..i have a box of Peanut Butter Crunch...Way to go Cap'n Crunch! YUM for cereal! Oh yeah, i have orange pop too! Yum.

I had auditions for the show we're doing in London last night. They went very well actually..i'm hopeful. Everyone who auditioned will have a part in the show, but the two leads are the only two people who don't have to play multiple characters. I'm hoping for a lead so i don't have to memorize 3 different characters. Anyway...

I'm talking to one of my friends on IM and i decided that i like to call him "Link" his real name is Lincoln...but i like to call him Link! Thought you'd all like to know that.

Oh, even though i don't really have anything exciting to report...i do know of a new musical artist that i've fallen in love with...his name is Damien Rice. The CD that i know of is called "O" check it out. You'll like it. it's real calm music...classified under "folk" but it's not your run of the mill "she'll be comin round the mountain" type of folk. I'm not nuts! Jacks, you'll like it. You're my auntie...of course you'll like it.

anyway...i have some stupid stuff i gotta get done...i don't wanna do it. but i need to it for classes and things. Ugh. Finals suck! Later!