Can you tell how extremely thrilled I am that I get to stay here until 7 tonight? I mean, the phone hasn't rang for anyone in over an hour...and we barely have any tickets left. All the supervisors have gone home and there is barely a single soul in the office aside from those of us who are being forced to stay here all night. Gosh...i just...couldn't be happier...watching everyone leave before my eyes.

Oh...Happy New Year....I'll be here, at work. (no not really, but geez)



i wish it was still yesterday and Heidi was here still.

By the way...my beautiful friend Heidi came to visit me today...we played on the computer some.









see??

i can do this...only been an hour and a half trying to get to sleep...i can do it.

i think i can, i think i can, i think i can....


ugh...

well, it's official. I am an insomniac. I cannot sleep. Of course, i was sleeping fiiiiiine...and i was expecting a phone call, but it came much later than i had thought it would. so i slept from 10-midnight, and then woke up to a phone call. now i cannot fall back asleep. Of course i was pleased to get the phone call...and the caller even said that they don't like calling me late because they know i can't get back to sleep...but i was happy to have gotten the call, so i said "nonsense." Now...i am awake. I keep drifting into sleep and am quickly pulled back into awakeness. it's awful. I just want to close my eyes and forget today..not think about tomorrow or the upcoming weekend or plans for new years. I just want to sleeeeeeep.

that's not too much to ask. a person should be able to call me, talk to me, and then hang up without having to worry that I won't fall back asleep...i should just be able to sleep.

I got a new computer for christmas, and i'm really excited about it, but i don't think the "j" key works very well. I always have to go back and retype the "j" or hit it twice. hmmm...that's unsettling. Anyway, christmas was good. was soooooo nice to go home and see family. I enjoyed my time there....and the food that just kept on coming. mmmmmm! I"M FREEZING. My bed is hot, but i can't sleep..my room is freezing, i have the space heater on, but i still can't sleep. waaaaaaaah!!!

ok i guess i'll go back and just lay there, pretending like i can actually sleep. maybe i'll trick myself. HA! funny joke. ok...night friends. i hope you all are sleeping well.

i'm exhausted.

can't sleep.

awake trying not to think anymore...of course getting phone calls late at night isn't such a bad thing. i like them a lot, but i can't seem to fall back asleep now after this one. ho hum...

i guess i'll do a crossword or something. maybe watch some TV. we'll see...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HEIDI!!!



You're an amazing friend and I am blessed to have had you in my life these 14 years! LOVE YOU!

so the last i checked...he KKOWS i get up at 8 every day and need to get in the shower because i have to catch my bus at 9...but does that matter? NO...he STILL thinks it's ok to get in the shower at 7:55 and stay in the bathroom until 8:20 so that I have to rush and am late to work.


thank you, so much.

Last night I went to the roller Derby with Joe and had a blast! He had never been before and was really excited to see what all the fuss was about. There was a TON of physical fights and girls falling and crashing, it was awesome! We had a blast! Really enjoyed ourselves! The, we waz hungryz....so he took me driving around St. Paul (where he grew up) and we ended up at one of his favorite little restaurants. The Chatterbox! It's a really cool place where people go in and play board games and old school nintendo games and have drinks and eat food and just hang out. So we spent some time there talking and having some foodz. It was really nice. Then he brought me home. It was a very good night altogether. First time he and i spent an evening just the two of us. It was wonderful. I'm very very happy.

I went christmas shopping yesterday, and I think i might have spent more money on myself than i did anyone else. oops! I'm going to reevaluate my purchases today and possibly take some things back. we'll see. Anyway, I need to go hop in the shower and get to the store to get some groceries. I haz no foodz in my house. But there is a Bonanza marathon on TV Land and i can't stop watching. AAAH! Carcass is trying to take my Ernie ornament off the christmas tree!!!! STOP FIEND!

must go!

oh happy....another friday on the 10-7 shift.

i'm really getting sick of this. "It shouldn't be too much longer" is all i keep hearing, and that's just bull. I'm tired of this. We've asked so many times, how much longer, but they never have an answer. there is little we can do at this point. I really don't want to complain about it anymore. i'm just tired of staying here so late. i feel like i'm missing out on so much. it's very frustrating. I will be having a 1:1 with my supervisor on Monday, and I think i'm going to just bring it up to her again. It's time to switch it up. it's past time.

as for everything else..... meh.

Well..i finished.


I'm not sure how i feel about the end. I'm a little disappointed at it's predictability. I mean, i knew what was going to happen halfway through it. I knew what had to be done...had a hunch the whole time. Surprisingly i didn't shed a single tear the whole book. i don't know why i wasn't so impressed with it. hmmm....

anyway! Done and done.

I'm terribly happy these days...

Terribly, terribly, terribly happy.