Can you tell how extremely thrilled I am that I get to stay here until 7 tonight? I mean, the phone hasn't rang for anyone in over an hour...and we barely have any tickets left. All the supervisors have gone home and there is barely a single soul in the office aside from those of us who are being forced to stay here all night. Gosh...i just...couldn't be happier...watching everyone leave before my eyes.

Oh...Happy New Year....I'll be here, at work. (no not really, but geez)



i wish it was still yesterday and Heidi was here still.

By the way...my beautiful friend Heidi came to visit me today...we played on the computer some.









see??

i can do this...only been an hour and a half trying to get to sleep...i can do it.

i think i can, i think i can, i think i can....


ugh...

well, it's official. I am an insomniac. I cannot sleep. Of course, i was sleeping fiiiiiine...and i was expecting a phone call, but it came much later than i had thought it would. so i slept from 10-midnight, and then woke up to a phone call. now i cannot fall back asleep. Of course i was pleased to get the phone call...and the caller even said that they don't like calling me late because they know i can't get back to sleep...but i was happy to have gotten the call, so i said "nonsense." Now...i am awake. I keep drifting into sleep and am quickly pulled back into awakeness. it's awful. I just want to close my eyes and forget today..not think about tomorrow or the upcoming weekend or plans for new years. I just want to sleeeeeeep.

that's not too much to ask. a person should be able to call me, talk to me, and then hang up without having to worry that I won't fall back asleep...i should just be able to sleep.

I got a new computer for christmas, and i'm really excited about it, but i don't think the "j" key works very well. I always have to go back and retype the "j" or hit it twice. hmmm...that's unsettling. Anyway, christmas was good. was soooooo nice to go home and see family. I enjoyed my time there....and the food that just kept on coming. mmmmmm! I"M FREEZING. My bed is hot, but i can't sleep..my room is freezing, i have the space heater on, but i still can't sleep. waaaaaaaah!!!

ok i guess i'll go back and just lay there, pretending like i can actually sleep. maybe i'll trick myself. HA! funny joke. ok...night friends. i hope you all are sleeping well.

i'm exhausted.

can't sleep.

awake trying not to think anymore...of course getting phone calls late at night isn't such a bad thing. i like them a lot, but i can't seem to fall back asleep now after this one. ho hum...

i guess i'll do a crossword or something. maybe watch some TV. we'll see...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HEIDI!!!



You're an amazing friend and I am blessed to have had you in my life these 14 years! LOVE YOU!

so the last i checked...he KKOWS i get up at 8 every day and need to get in the shower because i have to catch my bus at 9...but does that matter? NO...he STILL thinks it's ok to get in the shower at 7:55 and stay in the bathroom until 8:20 so that I have to rush and am late to work.


thank you, so much.

Last night I went to the roller Derby with Joe and had a blast! He had never been before and was really excited to see what all the fuss was about. There was a TON of physical fights and girls falling and crashing, it was awesome! We had a blast! Really enjoyed ourselves! The, we waz hungryz....so he took me driving around St. Paul (where he grew up) and we ended up at one of his favorite little restaurants. The Chatterbox! It's a really cool place where people go in and play board games and old school nintendo games and have drinks and eat food and just hang out. So we spent some time there talking and having some foodz. It was really nice. Then he brought me home. It was a very good night altogether. First time he and i spent an evening just the two of us. It was wonderful. I'm very very happy.

I went christmas shopping yesterday, and I think i might have spent more money on myself than i did anyone else. oops! I'm going to reevaluate my purchases today and possibly take some things back. we'll see. Anyway, I need to go hop in the shower and get to the store to get some groceries. I haz no foodz in my house. But there is a Bonanza marathon on TV Land and i can't stop watching. AAAH! Carcass is trying to take my Ernie ornament off the christmas tree!!!! STOP FIEND!

must go!

oh happy....another friday on the 10-7 shift.

i'm really getting sick of this. "It shouldn't be too much longer" is all i keep hearing, and that's just bull. I'm tired of this. We've asked so many times, how much longer, but they never have an answer. there is little we can do at this point. I really don't want to complain about it anymore. i'm just tired of staying here so late. i feel like i'm missing out on so much. it's very frustrating. I will be having a 1:1 with my supervisor on Monday, and I think i'm going to just bring it up to her again. It's time to switch it up. it's past time.

as for everything else..... meh.

Well..i finished.


I'm not sure how i feel about the end. I'm a little disappointed at it's predictability. I mean, i knew what was going to happen halfway through it. I knew what had to be done...had a hunch the whole time. Surprisingly i didn't shed a single tear the whole book. i don't know why i wasn't so impressed with it. hmmm....

anyway! Done and done.

I'm terribly happy these days...

Terribly, terribly, terribly happy.

Daddy?


I miss you.

Well, this weekend was beautiful. I didn't get to spend too much time outside today...some, walking to and from my car...but it was so windy and i really really really hate it when the wind blows my bangs the wrong way. I don't know why, but i CAN'T STAND that. So the windy winderson wasn't a concern of mine today...i mostly stayed inside.

Took Rogue for a walk on Friday and Saturday. She's a good dog and i've finally figured out a way to make her remain calm on walks. Cesar the dog whisperer is amazing. If i just keep Rogue's neck up...so that she can't sniff the ground, she heels and walks at MY pace and doesn't stray...she even listens when i tell her to sit at the end of the sidewalks. (We practice sitting at those places beacuse then I can look both ways before we cross the street!!) Anyway, we played in the yard some yesterday. See photos below.

I think i'm ready for my dad and brother to come home. I really don't see a lot of either of them, but i feel like i need them to come home. then i'll know they're safe and they are happy and healthy. speaking of healthy, i'm getting another cold. I just got over one two weeks ago and now i'm getting sick again. Good thing i have Zicam this time to catch it dead in it's tracks. I think i'm going to go and have some sleepytime tea and relax a little before I go to bed. Going to go to the gym in the morning and do some cardio...someone is beginning to pack on the winter weight already, and I'm depressed about it. To the gym! 4 times a week and no more constant sweet eating. Time to try the weight watchers journal again...(only not as strict...)

Welp...that was a signnificantly boring blog. i apologize. I hope you don't regret taking that time out of your life...you can't have it back anyway. *sigh* SEE PICS... they'll make you feel better for having read this crap. xoxox

In Honor of the holiday...a children's Poem:

When Daddy Carves the Turkey

When Daddy carves the turkey,
It is really quite a sight,
I know he tries his hardest,
But he never does it right.

He makes a fancy show of it,
Before he starts to carve,
And stabs in all directions,
While we're certain that we'll starve.

He seems to take forever,
As we sit and shake our heads,
By the time he's finished slicing,
He's reduced the birds to shreds.

He yells as loud as thunder,
Just before he's finally through
For when Daddy carves the turkey,
Daddy carves his finger too!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!!! *gobble gobble gobble*

Someone is hungry for some Lefse!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRAN!

Love you loads!

The Lotus "White Screen of Death!"



this is why i get nothing done in my day. i have to wait for Lotus to decide to work. otherwise all i get is a white screen that my coworkers and i refer to as "the white screen of death" it's annoying and ridiculously handicapping. UGH! i give up...

This weekend was interesting. Friday i went out with some friends after work, saturday i got stuff done and went to a roller derby with my big brother...and sunday i babysat Sam and Jensen. They were good for me! I had a good time...we had popcorn and watched Kart racer. it was such a "good" movie i couldn't stop watching!!! but i had some cute little girl feet on my lap, so i didn't mind the movie so much! Had to run some errands after i left Jodi and Darin's and wheni got home...i just relaxed for a bit before bed. Now it is Tuesday...

life is life. I've been to the gym the past two mornings. Gotta start eating better and working out more. I'm going nuts and eating myself silly isn't going to do anything but make me more unhappy! I know this...but candy is sooooooo good! hehehe. I have a crock pot now and i made Beef Stew in it for the first time. it tasted just like mom's. mmmmmm Beef stew and Biscuits. home cookin that i did myself! HOORAY! (i wn't eat too many biscuits though! ugh!!)

anyway...i gotta try to fix Lotus. Just a small boring update for you all! I get to have breakfast with my dad this week though. i'm happy and excited about that! mmmmm...ok ok ok...have a good day folks!

i am annoyed.




this job sucks SO MUCH!

Well, meeting went well. It was just an initial meeting...talked with the manager of the marketing department...well he's manager of an area of it...i think...anyway, i talked with him and let him know that I am interested in learning more. next step is to sit in on a meeting in the department...i'm excited for that!

will keep you posted!

I know I shouldn't be, but I'm nervous...

I have a meeting in a few minutes with the manager of the marketing department to find out more about what they do there. It's just talking and having conversation with him about his department, but I AM SO NERVOUS!

ugh...i'll go, i'll talk, i'll leave, it'll be over with. i can DO this...

more updates soon...i hope.

I can't sleep. Coughing all night long. Every time i lay down i cough. I have Fits whErE i cough so hard i shouLd be coughing up blood. But i cAn't even Do that. I need a humidiFier but mine is at my parents' hOuse. My wonderful roommate AaRon just went to the store down the road to pick me up some cough syrup and drops. So that at least MaybE i can get SOME sleep. This is awful...i can't stop. i just want to be put out of my misery...please?

aaron = <3 (heart)

thank you.

This weekend, October 13thish, Jamey was out of town...Kate and I spent the weekend together and saturday night went out dancing! We had a blast at Harvey's and then met up with joe and Mike later at The Otter! What a great night! I LOVE YOU KATE!!!
Me and Kate at Harvey's!

Some strange kid who wanted to dance with Kate and me. We let him! haha

MIKE AND MEGS!!!! HOORAY!

Katy Jo and Mego...

Joeface found me...and i didn't mind.

Kate found Joeface! He is lucky!

Ah, MY BIRTHDAY NIGHT!!!! this evening everyone came out to Brit's Pub with me to celebrate the day i was born! Coworkers and friends and family all came out to share this special day with me! I heart all of them!

Friday, October 19th! I went on a haunted hayride with these two boys, (Joe and Mike) and it was blast. we didn't get scared, but we sure laughed a lot! Then we went to a bar and had some drinks and just hung out! Great great night!!! Me and the boys!!!

Halloween was a blast! Here's me...i'm the unicorn...and friends! We had a ton of fun!

Well,

My birthday week was amazing. Thank you so much to all of you who helped makes it special. I really appreciated the cards, the money (Yes, Grandma and Grandpa G, I got your card!!), the phone calls and texts...as well as the e-mails...and to my friends and family who are up here in the cities and came out with me Tuesday night..thank you as well. I appreciate you all very much. Love you all equally as much! I will try to add photos later. At any rate...the whole entire week was amazing...topped off with an incredible weekend. So thank you. I'm so happy and I can't wait to live out this next year!

All my love to all of you!

Megs

It's me on my birthday!!!!!

life is good! Thanks everyone for making today special for me! Love you!

Well when i have to have knee surgery because you couldn't wait one minute for me to walk to a seat on the bus and sit down, I'll let you know what you owe for the bill, Mr. Bus Driver.

ass.

well today marks it....the first day of my 10am-7pm shift. I hate this. Here's proof.

I guess we all have to do it...but honestly. PUH...i'm hungry and no one is here. I'm going to get some ramen noodles to keep at my desk i think. none of that easy mac though...ugh...yuck. i think that stuff tastes like fish. anywho...happy first of the month. Enjoy the autumn air!

Here's the deal...

i do things. and I'm fine.

i'm fine.


consider yourself updated.

<3
Megan

Ok, well Monday night was fun. Kate called me and told me to come over after work so that she could practice the new finger wave technique that she learned in school that day. I was glad to oblige. But let's say, it's probably not the prettiest hair style on me. At one point, Kate looked at me and laughed saying "you look like a lesbian" well great. She gave me lesbian hair...and a mullet at that. She redid it several times and the final time it looked much better. (Still not a good look for me, but her technique was improving!--see photo)


Then yesterday i have a nice little event in the rain. I won't go into much detail, but let's assume that it was wonderful and sweet and it makes me happy to think about. I'm very lucky.

today i started out the day happy and whatever...then i got my first phone call. the guy was completely lost. he had no idea how to even use the service he signed up for almost a year ago. I gave him a complete walk through and checked his computer system to make sure he was complaint with our requirements and after about 45 min, i finally got him off the phone. UGH! it was just the most boring and ridiculous phone call. here is an example of how most of that call went...
"Ok Sir, do you see where it says Delete files?"
"yeah"
"ok, click on that, please."
"where it says delete files?"
"yes, click there."
"so i click where it say's delete files?"
"Yes, sir, click on the button that says delete files."
"ok, clicking..."


AAAAAAH! i'm going out of my mind. JUST CLICK WHEN I TELL YOU TO CLICK! it's not that difficult. puh...

ok, i'm much better now. just had a better call. and another...cept i called him the wrong name. His name was Deno, but the man i spoke to before him was Jesse...so Deno got called Jesse. UGH! i can't get it right!

Well last night i got to talk to my cousin Brianna. I realized, in talking to her, that i miss her a great deal. We didn't get to talk for too long, but i was glad to have had the conversation with her. We are so grown up now, and i think back to all the time that we spent together as kids. Sleepovers, camp, gran's house...there are so many things that make me happy when someone just says her name.

Cuzzin, I love you. i'm proud of you. I'm glad I got to talk to you. This photo is just for you:

I'm not sure what that's from, but when i typed in "Cousin" in the google image search, this photo came up. i think it says everything we are trying to say here.

Anyway...I just wanted you to know Brie (and everyone who reads this) that i think the world of you and I'm glad to have such a wonderful cuzzin. xoxoxoxoxox

omg omg omg omg eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!

things just got 100% better!!!!

maybe it's just me. Maybe there is a sign posted on me somewhere that says "go ahead, be rude to me. one up me, make me feel belittled and worthless. It's ok. I mean, that's what friends are there for, right? To take your anger and frustrations out on and to blame and treat poorly. Yeah, so go ahead. keep on kicking me."

that's got to be it.

I want to know when it becomes ok for someone you care about to just kick you down and then keep on kicking you. no matter how much you do for them. how often you're there for them or you bend over backwards to make them feel better, loved, appreciated. It seems like no matter how many times you back them up, remind them that they are smart and funny and beautiful and capable, they just turn around and stab the knife in....then continue to twist it in your back. Their "thank you's" and "i love you's" suddenly seem so empty and casual. They hardly meant what they said...it was just easy to say it because...that's what you say.

Well, i'm sorry that your life is worse off than mine. I'm sorry that you're angry at me for things that i have no control over. I'm sorry that i just spent 5 minutes telling you how much i think of you as a friend and you thought it was ok to turn around and blame me for the way things are going in your life. I just don't know what else to do. I'm sorry that you feel this way. If i could change it...i would. for you.

the best i can be for you is sorry.

Please....tell me what else will just be wrong today.

can i go back to bed please? PLEASE??????

Well here are some pics from my weekend!
HOORAY FOR WEEKENDS!!!!!!

New Hair!


Alex and Me! (She's tough!)

CANNONBALL!!!!

SMOOCH

say cheese!

The letter "T"